:Lullabies Won't Let Me Sleep:

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I settled down
A twisted up frown
Disguised as a smile, well
You would have never known

You would have never known

I have it all
But not when I wanted
'Cause over me was a place uncharted
And overgrown

You make your way in
I resist you, just like this
You can't tell me to feel
The truth never set me free
So I did it myself

You can't be too careful anymore
When all that is waiting for you
Won't come any closer
You've got to reach a little more
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Open your eyes
Like I opened mine
It's only the real world
Life you will never know

Shifting your way
To throw off the pain
Well you can ignore it
But only for so long

You look like I did
You resist me just like this
You can't tell me to heal
And it hurts remembering
How it felt to shut down

You can't be too careful anymore
When all that is waiting for you
Won't come any closer
You've got to reach a little more
More
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The truth never set me free
The truth never set me free
The truth never set me free, so I'll do it myself

You can't be too careful anymore
When all that is waiting for you
Won't come any closer
You've got to reach out

You can't be too careful anymore
When all that is waiting for you
Won't come any closer
You've got to reach out more
More
More
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Just something expressing how I feel right now.
It's a mix of frustrated and sad, the worst combination for me.
I feel like I'm about to break down and cry...

So yes, I guess this counts as a vent. Even though I'm pretty happy with how this came out..

Probably not going to sleep well tonight...well, not like I was really planning to sleep, anyway... ._.;

I'm sure you could take a wild guess at why I did this, and you'd probably be correct.
Forget it, I'll just tell you:

Grant. He's all I've been thinking about. It bothers me that I do, because I know that he won't get off my mind until I tell him that I like him...I just feel like I have a ton of bricks on my heart because he doesn't know. I have no idea if he still likes someone else, but. I just...can't tell him. Don't get me wrong, I secretly love it when he calls me late at night...er...early in the morning. Also, I like it when he texts me. Just randomly. Even if he only says, "boo." It's like my heart melts for him. I just can't get over it. (That's the first issue)
Second, I saw Inception today. It was a really wonderful movie, don't get me wrong. I loved it, and wasn't one of the many who have been confused by it. But it kind of got me thinking about reality and dreams...And what's real, what's not, what's imagination and stuff...and so now I'm going to find a top and carry it around like in the movie. Call me stupid, but I think I need it to snap back to reality sometimes. As much as I would like to imagine scenarios that would never happen as much as I do, I just get even more sad because they aren't real, and probably won't happen, ever. Sometimes they just end up breaking my heart... (There's more...)
Third. Grant's been in my dreams a couple of times. The most recent one that I remember with him in it, we were in a school of some sorts, and I was watching him answer a question or something. It went on, and it got to the point where he was asked who he liked. He said something like, "Don't tell anyone, but, Abbey." But we all know fairly well that I've fallen for someone who doesn't want to catch me. AKA, he doesn't like me back. When I woke up from the dream, I just sat there. Trying not to cry. I think it was a day or two before he told me that he liked someone, so I was really broken. (I thought that the dream was a sign...) And the night that he did say that, I cried. A lot. [That's all. Thank you for listening/reading, I'm sure you're getting sick of this by now]
Copy/pasted from Asia and I's chat.

I know you guys are pretty sick of hearing me whine, so thanks for putting up with me.

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